Thursday, May 6, 2010

I want to die. There I said it.  No I don't want to escape this mortal pain. I don't want to run from my emotion. I want to be dead.  Gone from this earth. I know that this will cause great pain to mat they would  family and friends. I know that they would miss me and they would suffer. I don't want them to suffer.  Don't get me wrong I am not saying that I am going to go out and kill myself.  (today anyway)  I just wish I understood it is all. Things are starting to look up for me. I got a job and everything is okay. Yet I want to die