nightmares scare me.

I can't stand waking up crying. With voices screaming in my head ranting about, hatred and death. Fear blinding me  from the deepest part of me. Okay I know that this sounds ridiculous but I can't explain it. The emotions overwhelm me. what do i do I about all the terror that lives in my head. How do I deal with the emotions that I have a run away from forever. Starved out and cut away